Tuesday, October 28, 2014

fresh beginnings



Be still (cease striving) and know that I am God. one of my all time favourites.

Thursday, October 23, 2014

the todolist never ends, does it?

but for now, the bed beckons - no white sheets but im going to get white sheets next time, i heard it helps with better rest. and im left with "in all that he does, he prospers" - how do we interpret this with the little information i have? everything seems to be reading into the passage our own pre-understanding and notions.


Tuesday, October 14, 2014

seemed like yesterday where I bought my favourite fried chicken for dinner before my nt Class, and seemed like yesterday where I felt so overwhelmed at work and had to go back to finish my notes and Justin came to pick me and cheer me up! but tomorrow is Wednesday again and time for my next lesson!  its actually 2 more classes and I'm halfway through - time truly flies. before I know it, ill be officially one year into my job!

I feel like perhaps - I've committed to too many things too fast too soon that I'm not getting enough rest/me time/time with God. so I'm trying to be more intentional about it now! But Singapore is truly just hectic in general - sometimes I think I'm caught up in the mindset that in order to be productive/make the best of my life I need to be constantly doing something.. :/

in one year, I've started work, started a relationship, settled back into church, settled into a cg  (still ongoing), started serving with the youth, started bgst, signed up for mpc, started running again,  healthserve. One mg and one mentor. on top of adjusting back to family commitments and rekindling old friendships. that's a lot for me.. 

so after going through the motions, I think now is the season to rest intentionally. so for that, I'm thankful that j has a work trip coming up! I'll miss him but it's a good time for me to rest a lil more. ^^

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

just read about how phelps is going for rehab. makes me wonder about human nature  - we strive to become better, to reach the top and when we reach the top - we dont know what to do with our lives. we dont know how to cope with the glory. no matter how good we are, we all have our own issues and troubles. reminds me of the convo i had with j about how everyone would have their own issues - the top student and the bottom student, the one who seemingly has it all and the one who doesnt.

so before we strive even harder, before we begin on an endless chase for something better, ask ourselves why. our motivations, our heart - search it deep and ask why. im not saying its wrong - but dont lose sight of what is most important.

this morning i had a conversation with a colleague about how i could have done more for one of my p. initially i was pretty affected as it seemed like i did something "wrong" but after a while, i was thankful that it was a good learning experience for me. after all its still my first year out and i was wondering about my plan for that p as well. i was also reflecting on the decisions i had made. so im glad that someone can provide some insight into the matter(:

that being said - there is always this inner battle at the back of my mind about this whole xx thing. I know it wont be settled anytime soon but I think its going to be one of the longest journeys ive ever taken, shouldnt think so much now and enjoy my 'youth' while i still can! as much as im excited for new phases of life - but im also reminded that its not going to be easy and there will be a lot of
more work & responsibilities.

alright tonight shall be an early night again! just one day of work and im all ready to just roll into bed.haha

goodnight world x

Monday, October 6, 2014

Thank god for public holidays

Nothing like being in a cafe on a weekday, just with a cuppa & some reading material. its something I miss so terribly. but I'm so thankful for the opportunity to just sit down and enjoy the hour or two with my study material! and grateful that I actually managed to finish reading it - it's a lot of pages to finish in one sitting especially for someone so easily distracted like me.  

met these girls and our math teacher for lunch today too. despite all the difficulties in actually meeting up - I'm thankful that we did. It reminded me of how far we have come, and how we really ought to be thankful for where we are able to be today. 

I shouldn't need a public holiday to be able to spend quality time with my Father - but it has definitely made it easier.. so despite my own inner angst, I am thankful for today.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

so many things have been happening - Singapore is indeed too eventful, I need to learn to say no? and I'm tired so I'm just gonna sleep. Thankful for tomorrow's public holiday!

thankful that Sunday - Justin is getting baptised and his entire  family has agreed to come! This is a first for his dad since I've known him so it's really a prayer answered.

There is too many things happening and my quiet time is suffering. block out the noises of the world my dear. but family, boyf, and church is enough to keep me occupied.

and here is a picture of us and phoebe's wedding! I'm at the age where going for weddings now makes me think of the kind of wedding I would like to have. But that aside - I'm so thankful for the conversations I've had with fellow ocfers during that dinner x

Saturday, September 27, 2014

saturdate! happy three (:

we discovered a new quaint place that we both really liked today (; in sentosa! havent been to sentosa in a really really long time. the last i remembered was sw's comms ball haha that was like 5? years ago??  its touristy, but not as crowded as i thought it would be. especially before 1pm(:

lunch at tablescape! 

our mocktail called Cinderella! (: 

 yumyum (: it was a quiet, fine lunch which we enjoyed in peace. bread as starters; salad/soup for appetizer; his beef/my barrumundi; and ice cream for dessert ^^ we were both very satisfied after that!

we (especially j) really liked the feel/ambience of the place - he kept raving about it and how he really wanted to come back and stay here in the future! if we can - after we get married in the far future haha

we headed to underwaterworld after - and enjoyed a show put up by these pink dolphins & sea lions!

 i love watching dolphins jump and leap - there's something so elegant and beautiful about them, i could watch them the whole day

i also really like these underwater tunnels(: of course this was much older as compared to the newer sea aquarium, but it was still an afternoon well spent just taking some time off our busy lives to spend time with each other. im glad we made this agreement to spend at least once a month to do something more special rather than the usual routine. to be honest, its only three months but we have definitely settled into our own routine already! most of the time - if we are able to meet on weekdays its dinner at my place. weekends is spend running errands/attending events/gatherings together, church and then dinner with each other's family. so i appreciate the times when we are able to just put aside everything else and just be with each other. and i hope we dont stop doing that!
taking touristy shots with the merlion! just like two months ago when we took a photo with the merlion in front of fullerton. 
was also just talking to the brother about results and about progressions with j and it just makes me think about how our society can be so performance driven. even when its not the paper chase, grades, we still look at performance in some way or another. i guess society needs to have a benchmark somehow? but still, is it not tiring to always be trying to meet a certain expectation thats placed on us artificially? by another human being? im glad our God is not a performance based God but one who provides the way back to Him despite our rebellion & failures. and in that, we can trust, we can be secure, we can hide under His wings. 

alright, going to attempt to run a 10km tomorrow. my aim is to finish it without walking. (: 


how do you know what is your calling??